gosh....it's been almost 3 months i haven't touch my so call blog...is not that i don't have any stories to write...i just that i been messing with my mind lately trying to figure out what actually happening in my life. things are really turn 180 degrees for me after i leaved high school. the outside world just make me be someone i'm never been...or it just time that do change people...we just don't realize it...or don't want to admit it. anyway...right now i'm absolutely nervous since i'm going to resit my AS paper and adding more 3 of my A2papers... shit, that just too much. hate repeating papers....i'll try harder this time. i'm also scared because at the end of this year i'm going for vacation with my family for almost a week...and i definitely not going to spend more time for study...so..there goes my study.
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Friday, September 16, 2011
MY LITTLE TRIP TO BESUT.
Last weekend, i went to besut with my uncle and auntie. although that weekend was a bit busy, i decided that i'm not going to let my chances go away. my untie invited me to join her side of family gathering for hari raya. the plan was on Friday we drive to besut, get a home-stay house, Saturday, go to the beach, breakfast, shopping at the supermarket, at the night, having BBQ. Sunday went back to Kulim.
i never used the highway of the East-west of Malaysia. i was completely amazed by the beauty of nature. there is even once, we crossed the lake of banding. on my god ...it was big until i felt a little goosebumps. i wander why i didn't felt it when i was crossing the bridge of pulau pinang? never mind, but the road is always turn right, turn left, and when you going up to the mountain or going down, you will feel the air pressure on your ears. cause i felt it a lot.
when we arrived at besut, my auntie brought me to meet her family and i recognized them one by one. they were very much friendly. although they are village people, they never look me on the other way. there were so many small children. i asked my auntie's sister how many child she had, she answer me 8. my jaw drop opened. so i asked on a girl beside me, which was holding a small boy. "is this your little brother?" she answer me.."no, this is my son.." . my auntie's sister just now is her mother-in-law. my jaw dropped even bigger.
i guess village people get marry early. even one of my auntie's sister had 13 children. right now, i felt even scarier to have a family of my own. how can people be so sure of what they are doing in their life. i means there are so many possibility and wonders.
so we finally arrived at our little homestay...or should i say big. because it was a big semidi house which full of furniture already. i got my own room with a king size bed, a mirror table, a closet and that's all. the kitchen were big. i guess that why they choose this house. the first night was smooth, i helped my untie prepare for dinner and had a small chat with my uncle and other new people i just met, did some study for my math quiz and then i went to sleep.
the next day, my auntie, two of her niece, and me went to the bukit keluang beach. it was a beautiful morning since the sun does not shine hardly. we had our breakfast there and took some pictures. luckily, the two niece, zana and su did brought a canon's camera which is great for our little shooting slot. then, my auntie and i went to the small market to buy some ingredient for our cook. my untie cooked mee jawa for the whole family and it was delicious. even i felt tired helping her, i sense a new me inside of myself.
that night, everyone were enjoying themselves, eating, laughing, talking, playing things, i was sitting alone looking at them. is not that i don't want to join them having fun or they were pushing me aside. it just that, suddenly i miss my mother so much, actually i miss my whole family, but mostly my parents. after seeing other people's life, i started to realize how scary your life can be. one day, your parents will die and you have to learn to live alone. is naturally comes to me when i get scared i miss my parents. because the most safely place i can think of is beside them. and seeing other people with thier own family, make me drop a few of my tears. i wish my parents know how much they means to me.
however, i got to hold my grip back after a while.the BBQ was done by the boys and my auntie keeps saving some for me. i was a bit touched by that. even i got to taste it first before the boys. haha. they didn't mind because they got to eat more. there were football live match, so they took turn on grilling the meats.
in the ends, everyone have a good time with their family. around 11 o'clock, people started to go back home. i helped my auntie do some cleaning until 12 o'clock. then back to my room, did some study and go to bed.
the next day, we started our journey back to kulim around 1 o'clock. we say a few goodbyes to the fellow relative and headed to the road where i was back a gain to amazed by those beautiful nature of Allah's creation.
i never used the highway of the East-west of Malaysia. i was completely amazed by the beauty of nature. there is even once, we crossed the lake of banding. on my god ...it was big until i felt a little goosebumps. i wander why i didn't felt it when i was crossing the bridge of pulau pinang? never mind, but the road is always turn right, turn left, and when you going up to the mountain or going down, you will feel the air pressure on your ears. cause i felt it a lot.
when we arrived at besut, my auntie brought me to meet her family and i recognized them one by one. they were very much friendly. although they are village people, they never look me on the other way. there were so many small children. i asked my auntie's sister how many child she had, she answer me 8. my jaw drop opened. so i asked on a girl beside me, which was holding a small boy. "is this your little brother?" she answer me.."no, this is my son.." . my auntie's sister just now is her mother-in-law. my jaw dropped even bigger.
i guess village people get marry early. even one of my auntie's sister had 13 children. right now, i felt even scarier to have a family of my own. how can people be so sure of what they are doing in their life. i means there are so many possibility and wonders.
so we finally arrived at our little homestay...or should i say big. because it was a big semidi house which full of furniture already. i got my own room with a king size bed, a mirror table, a closet and that's all. the kitchen were big. i guess that why they choose this house. the first night was smooth, i helped my untie prepare for dinner and had a small chat with my uncle and other new people i just met, did some study for my math quiz and then i went to sleep.
the next day, my auntie, two of her niece, and me went to the bukit keluang beach. it was a beautiful morning since the sun does not shine hardly. we had our breakfast there and took some pictures. luckily, the two niece, zana and su did brought a canon's camera which is great for our little shooting slot. then, my auntie and i went to the small market to buy some ingredient for our cook. my untie cooked mee jawa for the whole family and it was delicious. even i felt tired helping her, i sense a new me inside of myself.
that night, everyone were enjoying themselves, eating, laughing, talking, playing things, i was sitting alone looking at them. is not that i don't want to join them having fun or they were pushing me aside. it just that, suddenly i miss my mother so much, actually i miss my whole family, but mostly my parents. after seeing other people's life, i started to realize how scary your life can be. one day, your parents will die and you have to learn to live alone. is naturally comes to me when i get scared i miss my parents. because the most safely place i can think of is beside them. and seeing other people with thier own family, make me drop a few of my tears. i wish my parents know how much they means to me.
however, i got to hold my grip back after a while.the BBQ was done by the boys and my auntie keeps saving some for me. i was a bit touched by that. even i got to taste it first before the boys. haha. they didn't mind because they got to eat more. there were football live match, so they took turn on grilling the meats.
in the ends, everyone have a good time with their family. around 11 o'clock, people started to go back home. i helped my auntie do some cleaning until 12 o'clock. then back to my room, did some study and go to bed.
the next day, we started our journey back to kulim around 1 o'clock. we say a few goodbyes to the fellow relative and headed to the road where i was back a gain to amazed by those beautiful nature of Allah's creation.
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Monday, August 29, 2011
AS Exam result...why it is so tough??
things are really getting too massy with all the side jobs i got from being the vice president of this whole prespain activity...thank Allah, some of the jobs were given to the other who i thought can handle it wisely. but still, i have to work twice than anyone else, since my recent marks from AS exam wasn't that really good. after having short talk with my beloved baba...he seems to approve my thought of getting 4 papers repeated. it just that now i'm considering what madam hayati had told me. she advice me to only repeat two or three papers...but that was only enough for me to get B on those papers..a low B. it just too risky for me...
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Thursday, August 18, 2011
11 point...
i don't really know how to express my thought when i first saw my result slip. the full mark for as exam is 15 point but i only get 11. 3 of my classmate got 13 points, 4 persons got 12 point. i wander why i can't do the same...
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Wednesday, August 17, 2011
result...
Right now..i'm waiting for my name to be called. One by one student are being call to show them their result. The thing is, you don't have to hide it because it shows on your face a lot. I am really afraid i could not bear it. Please tell me the thing that i really want to hear.
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CARA NAK BUANG VIRUS DI BULAN PUASA> perhaps it can be done everyday actually
Enter the masjid
‘Forward’ --> your solat
‘Download’ --> pahala
......‘Firewall’ --> your iman
‘Backspace’ --> from syaitan
‘Bookmark’ --> to Allah SWT
‘Delete’ --> Allah’s enemies,
‘Copy paste’ --> from the Al-Qur’an and Sunnah
‘Help’ --> your muslim brothers n sisters
‘File’ --> your amal
‘Edit’ --> your akhlaq
‘View’ --> your good and bad deeds
‘Search’ --> the straight and right path
■ And Insya-Allah you will never get ‘virus ♥
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Monday, August 15, 2011
lately...
So many things happen since the last time i wrote on my blog. I really wish i could update it all so that my family can read more about my life. I am absolutely will find my time to sit down and do some writing. But until this thursday, my heart just won't stop beating fastly. A level result came out that morning, i don't even sure whether i have the courage to look at it. So maybe on my next entry i would write about my result. Ya Allah, please kindly make me accept whatever my score would be. May it'll be the best of me.
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