Last weekend, i went to besut with my uncle and auntie. although that weekend was a bit busy, i decided that i'm not going to let my chances go away. my untie invited me to join her side of family gathering for hari raya. the plan was on Friday we drive to besut, get a home-stay house, Saturday, go to the beach, breakfast, shopping at the supermarket, at the night, having BBQ. Sunday went back to Kulim.
i never used the highway of the East-west of Malaysia. i was completely amazed by the beauty of nature. there is even once, we crossed the lake of banding. on my god ...it was big until i felt a little goosebumps. i wander why i didn't felt it when i was crossing the bridge of pulau pinang? never mind, but the road is always turn right, turn left, and when you going up to the mountain or going down, you will feel the air pressure on your ears. cause i felt it a lot.
when we arrived at besut, my auntie brought me to meet her family and i recognized them one by one. they were very much friendly. although they are village people, they never look me on the other way. there were so many small children. i asked my auntie's sister how many child she had, she answer me 8. my jaw drop opened. so i asked on a girl beside me, which was holding a small boy. "is this your little brother?" she answer me.."no, this is my son.." . my auntie's sister just now is her mother-in-law. my jaw dropped even bigger.
i guess village people get marry early. even one of my auntie's sister had 13 children. right now, i felt even scarier to have a family of my own. how can people be so sure of what they are doing in their life. i means there are so many possibility and wonders.
so we finally arrived at our little homestay...or should i say big. because it was a big semidi house which full of furniture already. i got my own room with a king size bed, a mirror table, a closet and that's all. the kitchen were big. i guess that why they choose this house. the first night was smooth, i helped my untie prepare for dinner and had a small chat with my uncle and other new people i just met, did some study for my math quiz and then i went to sleep.
the next day, my auntie, two of her niece, and me went to the bukit keluang beach. it was a beautiful morning since the sun does not shine hardly. we had our breakfast there and took some pictures. luckily, the two niece, zana and su did brought a canon's camera which is great for our little shooting slot. then, my auntie and i went to the small market to buy some ingredient for our cook. my untie cooked mee jawa for the whole family and it was delicious. even i felt tired helping her, i sense a new me inside of myself.
that night, everyone were enjoying themselves, eating, laughing, talking, playing things, i was sitting alone looking at them. is not that i don't want to join them having fun or they were pushing me aside. it just that, suddenly i miss my mother so much, actually i miss my whole family, but mostly my parents. after seeing other people's life, i started to realize how scary your life can be. one day, your parents will die and you have to learn to live alone. is naturally comes to me when i get scared i miss my parents. because the most safely place i can think of is beside them. and seeing other people with thier own family, make me drop a few of my tears. i wish my parents know how much they means to me.
however, i got to hold my grip back after a while.the BBQ was done by the boys and my auntie keeps saving some for me. i was a bit touched by that. even i got to taste it first before the boys. haha. they didn't mind because they got to eat more. there were football live match, so they took turn on grilling the meats.
in the ends, everyone have a good time with their family. around 11 o'clock, people started to go back home. i helped my auntie do some cleaning until 12 o'clock. then back to my room, did some study and go to bed.
the next day, we started our journey back to kulim around 1 o'clock. we say a few goodbyes to the fellow relative and headed to the road where i was back a gain to amazed by those beautiful nature of Allah's creation.
i never used the highway of the East-west of Malaysia. i was completely amazed by the beauty of nature. there is even once, we crossed the lake of banding. on my god ...it was big until i felt a little goosebumps. i wander why i didn't felt it when i was crossing the bridge of pulau pinang? never mind, but the road is always turn right, turn left, and when you going up to the mountain or going down, you will feel the air pressure on your ears. cause i felt it a lot.
when we arrived at besut, my auntie brought me to meet her family and i recognized them one by one. they were very much friendly. although they are village people, they never look me on the other way. there were so many small children. i asked my auntie's sister how many child she had, she answer me 8. my jaw drop opened. so i asked on a girl beside me, which was holding a small boy. "is this your little brother?" she answer me.."no, this is my son.." . my auntie's sister just now is her mother-in-law. my jaw dropped even bigger.
i guess village people get marry early. even one of my auntie's sister had 13 children. right now, i felt even scarier to have a family of my own. how can people be so sure of what they are doing in their life. i means there are so many possibility and wonders.
so we finally arrived at our little homestay...or should i say big. because it was a big semidi house which full of furniture already. i got my own room with a king size bed, a mirror table, a closet and that's all. the kitchen were big. i guess that why they choose this house. the first night was smooth, i helped my untie prepare for dinner and had a small chat with my uncle and other new people i just met, did some study for my math quiz and then i went to sleep.
the next day, my auntie, two of her niece, and me went to the bukit keluang beach. it was a beautiful morning since the sun does not shine hardly. we had our breakfast there and took some pictures. luckily, the two niece, zana and su did brought a canon's camera which is great for our little shooting slot. then, my auntie and i went to the small market to buy some ingredient for our cook. my untie cooked mee jawa for the whole family and it was delicious. even i felt tired helping her, i sense a new me inside of myself.
that night, everyone were enjoying themselves, eating, laughing, talking, playing things, i was sitting alone looking at them. is not that i don't want to join them having fun or they were pushing me aside. it just that, suddenly i miss my mother so much, actually i miss my whole family, but mostly my parents. after seeing other people's life, i started to realize how scary your life can be. one day, your parents will die and you have to learn to live alone. is naturally comes to me when i get scared i miss my parents. because the most safely place i can think of is beside them. and seeing other people with thier own family, make me drop a few of my tears. i wish my parents know how much they means to me.
however, i got to hold my grip back after a while.the BBQ was done by the boys and my auntie keeps saving some for me. i was a bit touched by that. even i got to taste it first before the boys. haha. they didn't mind because they got to eat more. there were football live match, so they took turn on grilling the meats.
in the ends, everyone have a good time with their family. around 11 o'clock, people started to go back home. i helped my auntie do some cleaning until 12 o'clock. then back to my room, did some study and go to bed.
the next day, we started our journey back to kulim around 1 o'clock. we say a few goodbyes to the fellow relative and headed to the road where i was back a gain to amazed by those beautiful nature of Allah's creation.
